SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

celebrate raya on my bed
in my class
eating egg sandwich and chips and salsa
not ketupat,
no meat
no sambal goreng

woke up by a phone call
-sera and her little brother, rai

---raya with many datelines---

well
this is a small world
the doctor that kakx kaky dan kakz
recommended Sera seeing
is someone whom me and my family know
very well

mak,
ayah,
igtkan doktor Yati?
along rasa till now she is still in that clinic
Zul and rakan2?
rite?

what a coincidence
what a small world
wow
still amazed

and i know another doctor
who is also super duper nice
but she is in HUKM , kl
Dr Harlina Halizah
an ObGy

and last but not least
Dr shafinaz ;)

small world

hmmm
first thing in the morning
was a TEST!!
( nv, i won't write ur name here )

went breakfast
read people's journal
( lepas fulfill physical needs, emotional needs plak la )
then check email
something caught my eye
"utk perepuan yg aku sayangi"

uiksss
it's just a poem send by someone
to MANY people
but it makes me think

you can say and want
such and such quality from someone
anyone in the world
but why is there good and bad people?
and who are we , actually, to judge them good or bad
"one's man junk is one's man treasure"
rite?

that poem is dedicated to women
( the old type, who just want to end up settling down, JUST settling down )
what makes me sicko ( kind of ) is
if all men ( sicko ) look for that PARTIcULAR , so defined good
why some people still got divorced after XX years of marriage
after XX years of love?

and who are THEM ( people who think the poem represent themselves )
to CHANGE the women they marry?
since
" to love to someone, is to let them be themselves"

weird
i do not believe that human can be changed by human
i believe any change any wo/man did is because of themselves
and what inspires them
( hidayah? )
that is NOT human factor there except the person's human

then now it make sense
why we defined bad and good people
though such comparison is relative
to our experience
:) :) :)

people will take their time
people will learn
people will change
"these is nothing such as constant except for the change itself"

no more words
just some reminders and mental notes for myself

*dinner mlm nie , kul 7.00*
keje from 3-7 pm
siapkan wost papers & web hunt

selamat hari raya, hua hua hua, ari raya ader klas..hua hua hua

location: recereational center a.k.a rec center
time: about 7.00 pm

rummaging through my wallte
looking for university ID a.k.a U card
"hello"
"hi"
klik
the door automatically open

"kak amani!"
"ed"
"mana kak farah,aza, noris ngan zaza?"
"ntahnyer, tadik telepon derang kater kul 7.00"
hahahhah"janji melayu tul"

"apsal kak amani bawak raket badminton?"
"igt nak main lepas swimming"
"ed, nak join"
"malas la, penat, tgk la beg nie, penuh buku, ader paper due minggu depan"
"ed nak pi solat sat la, tak semayang lagik, kang cakap kat derang jumpa kat bawah, dlm loker room"
"okay"

went downstairs
prayed
changed
went to pool
cooke 10
reserved for muslim girls today

swim, swim, can do la
with the help of the polystyrene board
2 laps
then collapsed!!!
swimming is really tiring woo

went back to noris's house
slept there last nite
came back at 8.00 am

have meeting for raya haji
at 4.30 at pyan's house

nak gi east bank
nak wat hw

*this time, you better finish it Nadhra! *

p/s weighed my weight
i lost 6 pounds since got back from DC
94 lbs compared to 100 lbs while at DC
and 95 lbs last year

ok dah delete!

malasnyer!!!!
women studies paper
from 5 pages
baru kat first and quarter page
malas!!!!!

aaaaa
gi swimming dulu
( ala, duk dlm pool jer, tak reti berenang la )

ehehe, cik nadhra
belum semayang maghrib
jgn lupesss

malas!!!!!
mlm nie nak duk atas bed,
curl dlm comforter
and read chicken soup
aaaaa...
best2...

cik nakal,
masak aper tuh???

malas
malas
malas

nak jadik ular sawa kekenyangan
skali skala kan?

* di harap pembaca tidak turut sama menjadik pemalas*
terutama yg nak masak tuh, hehehehhehehehehehhehe

another shiny day
it is warm
warm that i do not need my jacket
cold that ice don't melt
just nice!

still below 0 c
but warm for me

i am about to write
something that i might forget
one day
it's about my elementary school days

i was in the same class for 6 years
ungu = purple , is my class
there is about 43 of us
people keep coming and leaving

2 of my classmates
when i was elementray school is here
zahirah and hawa
zahirah is in new york
hawa is in indiana

best student of the class
through out the 6 years
was syukur
and second
is faisal
syukur went to SDAR
after standard 6
and faisal went to
SMKA batu lima
( betul ker nie? )

to be continued

today is myself day
went shopping at rosedale
looking for abercrombie la..
but can't find anything i like

so
now
i am old enough
filling my own income tax return form
huh
anak mak dah beso
isi borang income tax
kat US lak tuh
hehehheheheh

anyway, tuh la best way to get money
for now la
isi text return form
mine is a lot jugaks
since i rent my apartment for a year
and i work for 4 jobs during summer
and maintain 3 jobs
academic year

hahahhahahah
iskkkk
susahnyer nak isi
dah ler complicated
banyak kategori lak tuh

tak jadik terus nak isi tax return online
pos jer la
lambat dpt pun takper
tak reti la!!

napa la sblm dtg US
mak ayah tak ajar isi borang income tax?
ker ajar kat skolah ker
kan ker bagus
dari tercangak camnie
iskkk
iskk

byknyer responsibility!!

*dah jumpa 'my inspiration' masa shopping tadik, and it's a book! *