basuh baju
and tgh berusaha berfikir dlm bahasa melayu
balik2 terus clean up things
kemas laci
sambung kemas almari/bookcase

serak sungguh laci ed
and tak jumpa plak kad2 yg org kasik
harituh ader, ed letak mana ntah
terus putus asa nak carik

benda camtuh la
kalai di carik
tadernyer
kalau tak dicarik
ader jer depan mata
serius tak paham

balik tadi
weather cantik
panas
walaupun mlm smlm snow kat tracy
nyenyak giler tido
kepenatan sbb lepas bercakap dlm klas
terus kene set up booth utk mesia

jumpa dgn 2 org budak mesia chinese
dari Southwest state univ
derang bawak bendera, peta dan siap berbaju kurung
menarik org malaysia nie
terasa ptriotik skejap

derang pun citer
makanan kat sini tak sedap
dah buhsan makan pizza ngan french frie
stefani kater " lebih rela makan magi kari"
dia masak kari kat umah :)
chyi pulak dah nak grad sem nie
lepas nie dia nak dtg minneapolis carik keje

hmmm

satu benda ed notis pasal tracy yg lain dari minneapolis
selain dari populasi yg kecik ( 2 ribu lebih jer )
dan byk ladang2
dan senyap
dan ramai org tua
dan byk kucing
dan byk kanak2

air kat tracy ( air paip )
agak berakali berbanding air kat minneapolis
kater sue
sbb air kat tracy dari wells ( spring water )
and then air dia jenis Soft water
so kulit tak der ler sekering kalau mandi ngan hard water

tahu kan aper beza soft water ngan hard water?

here i am in tracy high school
likewise this is a very interesting visit
in 2 days now, i think i have learn more about people
then i have in a month of socializing around in minneapolis
interesting people

this time
there is Graciela again
with her fiancee, max
jenni and vincent from taiwan
and kun from china

we traveled for 3.5 hours yesterday
and that was a " foggy " trip all the way
the temp had stayed the same and there is no sign of warming up

i am on my break
i will be speaking in 3 more classes
should be very interesting
i talked to one this morning
we had girl name Shanna who asked a bunch of questions

hehehehhehehe
she reminded me when i was like her few years ago

otherwise
here i am on a macintosh machine
writing up my journal before lunch time

my host for this weekend is
larry and sue muenchow
they had a farm
and yes
like old mcdonald had a farm
it was big and quiet
had a really good time here so far

got email from jess and yung
jess was "angry' that she did not heard from me at all this break
she said " better have some explanation nadhra!"
and yung canceled the trip to stillwater because of the weather

else
i can't attend the tutors meeting this saturday
in the islamic school

pretty much it blog

and yeah
yesterday, before i left
i managed to get jenni to move all my stuff
so i bookcase and my drawers are all set now
it took me 2 hours to unpack and clean the mess
before kyoung rae got back from rec center
hahahahha

bagai bayu
berlalu
..hatiku merindu...
-something on era when i was opening this blog-
really like that song, once upon time..:)

almost finish moving my stuff
from zaza's and noris's house
helped by pyan and awin and zaza
pyan an awin supppose to leave for champaign tonite
with some few other people
but they have gotten back yet from duluth

and so
pyan was geram at me
( ha , lan now you got another fren who want to cubit me, hahaha )
sbb at sometimes noon
he was wondering if i need help with a car
because he just rent one
to go to champaign visiting his buah hati
( farah baca nie, jgn blushing plak :) )

and i said no
after maghrib
i changed my mind
called them asking for help

and pyan was like
" apsal tadik jual mahal?, kan skang dah takleh tolong lama2?
tadik org offer jual mahal, skang nak suh org buat 2 trip plak "
i thought my stuff is not that "much"
but i guess yes
i need 2 trips to get all my stuff to middlebrook

and he kept asking
"tuh la suka sgt jual mahal"
"saper suh? apsal jual mahal?"

-hahahahhahahahahhaha-

so, tomorrow still gonna need
jennifer's help to move my stuff
need to do that early though
since i am leaving for tracy at 2 pm
and be back on saturday
tak pack barang lagik
-sigh!-

haa....did not get that job la
since i can't work more than 10 hours
they want people with people with at least 10 hours working per week
-sigh!-
wait till summer la then
for 2 jobs

me and kyoung rae
have decided to move out
this summer
since we can't keep our stuff
in this dorm
-sigh!-

another problem after one problem
can't help it

lan, dah jumpa rumah?
ker merempat?:)

-----me-----

was ist "yak"?
Bot jawab Bot, :)

job interview
went well
dunno
applied for that job because to regain
my language skills
language
once learned , need some practice
else, fogotten

stomatache
have not eaten chilli's food in a while
when i ate one last nite
my stomach goes on war
and still going on there...

arghhhhh
mak
first thing when i got back
no chilli yeah?

yesterday:
tried calling sera, she was not at home at time, watch TV, sleep

woke up at 12.00
got job interview at 1.00 pm
library job, got to do with arabic language
have not used that in a while
so , looking for ways to use that

while at the library
looked for java, unix, html books

then off to payroll service'
to get my w-2 form
which they send to malaysia
then
tried to get some food
have not eaten anything
no food
but, hey i am fine!

got meeting for international center at 4.00 pm
and usrah at 6.00 pm

then, i am done

note
?????

i am not that angry la...

heeheheheheheheheh
spending my first 2 days
talking to people
i have missed a lot
and like a lot talking to

sounds like they are all okay and happy

seriously
it is fun just to sit around
with nothing to do
if something came up in your mind
you can either do it now
or wait
nobody can say anything about that!

but i can' t live like this forever
maybe sometimes like this
but not all the time
or else i can go crazy
just sit around
huhuhuhuhuhuhu

.......................................

what's wrong with the server which hold my blog?
why is it not publishing
else i will open a new one then
what da ya think?

like sera
i have found people who has problems
with me writing down my thoughts out loud
i am sorry
but this is my blog
if you are having problems reading this

GO AWAY!

maybe ed should taruk disclaimer also here
so that people who brings my thoughts
into their dreams, can stop doing that

hell, get your own blog or at least write down in my guestbook....

don't just keep things to your dreams
else i won't know!

byk nak cerita nie
sbb dah 2 hari tak tulis journal
kepala tgh sakit, tapi tak kira nak cerita jugak!

mlm kelmarin ( 2 hari lepas )
kyoung rae tak balik bilik
then last nite dia tak balik jugak till like 9 pm
so kiterang
me , john, janet ngan jenni
decided to report pada CA floor
sbb dia tak penah buat camnie
no phone calls
no emails
dah more than 48 hours since i last saw her
risau!

and so
resident's hall director dtg
police dtg
sumer dtg soal siasat
buat missing person report
dahler hari nie exam DE
pastuh assignment ME yg electronic tuh due
mmg cramped giler la last nite

and so
around 12 midnite
she came home
so
call la balik sumer org2 tadik, kasik tahu
si missing person dah balik
police tuh cakap2 la ngan dia

went to bed like 2 am
i was so nervous about today
that i can't hardly sleep
woke up at 8 am
went to breakfast
and then up and go to school

susah giler nak decide aper nak pakai gi skolah
it is suppose to be spring now
but the wind is so chilly
that i still need to put double layer on

- 3/4 sleeve white, pooh bear tshirt
-abercrombie shirt, kotak2 dark blue, green stripe and white stripe
-favourite pants ( liz clairbone, ala, reject shope US mari, slack type )
sarung tudung putih
and jacket yg reversible
sarung stokin dark blue
snickers
grab backpack
off to school

sampai klas 10 minutes early for the DE exam
takut nie
sbb tak prepare sgt
dpt2 paper
terus jawab
"hentam jer la"

abis jer exam
gi kedai carik battery utk assignment ME yg due kul 2.30 pm
smlm dah assemble part
so kene download program dlm STAMP board
kene pulak
pin4 tuh rosak, takleh terima input

takper
gi klas dulu
next klas at 11.15 am
c++
dpt balik midterm yg bernilai 20% from final
average class 62 from 100
org sebelah ed dapat 98 from 100
ed dapat, 77

abis klas c++
lari gi ME building
jumpa preofessor Durfee
komplain pasal stamp board
sbb ramai sgt org kat situh
tgh queu utk tanya soalan
gi print PRo E dulu

jumpa minah yg ader masalah board gaks
dia kasik idea
tuko wire on pin4
to pin 6
tiko porgram
download skali lagik
alhamdulillah
berfungsi like 15 before klas tuh mula

so
went to that last class
ME 2011
intro to mechanical engineering

lega sumer assignment dah siap
here i am now
waiting for leaderquest meeting at 6
before that nak gi dinner dulu
lapo sgt2 nie
hari nie lari sana, lari sini

esok dah boleh enjoy!!
secara tak rasminyer
my spring break has begun

tomorrow
one class
then finish c++ lab
wanted to go to target
fixed my watch ( not mine, my mom's)
( jam yg mak dapat masa anugerah pekerja tuh,
bateri dia dah abis,
pinjam lagik yek mak, sampai grad! )

then tido
sebest2nyer
saper yg suka gayut tuh,
hehehehhehehe
sabtu pagik and ahad pagik

siap la, org dah cuti nie!

this site is highly recommended
for people who like to play
with javascript
without having to think and build it up

a good resource for personal homepage
for lazy people !

here it is!

hmmm
not much had been going on

trying to sit down and began plan
for spring break
but it seems like there exist no free time

another school visit
driving to stillwater with yung
move stuff to middlebrok
buy laptop
( for real this time)
sleep
eat
watch movies!
robot

my unorganized thoughts

-----------------------------------------

favourite quotes from songs:

" if it makes you happy, i can't be that bad! "

" if you want to be somebody else, change your mind "

:)

sedih
lina dah balik
rasa ilang something
from the daily life

tapi ed mmg takleh nak "simpan" dia pun
sedih
missing something again

lepas2 tuh terpikir
kalau dia end up
ngan mamat tuh ( namanya dirahsiakan )
ala....
kene "share" pulak
hahahhahahahah

takper la
org wujud kat dunia nie
bukan utk kiter "simpan"
tapi utk pengalaman
dan pembelajaran

tuh la kan
kalau satu masa nanti
gi jauh2
( skang pun jauh, 12 hours drive dari sini )
ker
setahun skali jumpa ker
uwa uwa uwa
nasib every week gayut
hehehhehehehe

emotional sket hari nie
maaf
she left around 7 am this morning
rindu nyer!

2 am
got back to my room
zaki la, masak lambat
sampai ilang selera tunggu

yesterday
3 hours ngadap PC
abis
balik bilik, kemas bilik yg sgt tidak kemas itu
and call epul

epul dtg amik
pi Mall of America
jammed la plak

while we were there
me and Suria non stop sakat epul ngan lina
hehehhehe
provokasi yg sgt best
can't help it
enjoyed it too much !

bought A and F stuff
three pieces
seluar, kemeja ang t -shirt
cleareance for spring collection

nak balik rumah!!

what i was expecting did happen
the chapter i am suppose to work on
turn out to be something i did not understand
and so, kantoi la quiz pagi nie
ehhehehehhehehhehe

no komen

working on my c++
if you visit my blog everyday
i mean thusrdays
this is all you will read till the end of this semester

hehehhehehheh
lina ader
sumer best!
yg tak best pun jadik best
susah camnie

allrite
woke up late
lina arrived around 12.30 am last nite
miss DE class

try hard not to miss the exam
it was quit easy
but require faster time writing it down
so many questions
so little time
everybody was complaining about it


lan, what had happen to you?
ha...gi Disney World, yekk?
joli sakan ka?
jeles la nie,
pi study la, minggu depan ader 5 exam
hehehehheheh

also got another midterm next week
another DE
sera, are we still on it?
( ed rasa cam dah nak kalah jer )

tomorrow DE quiz
on characteristic value and characteristic value
and mlm nie lina gonna overnite in my room
hehehhehehe

what da think gonna happen?

energetic day
cool!

lina have not gotten here yet
on her way from madison
she told me they will leave after Asr'

me
remember the paper i told you guys about?
the women studies paper?
i got A- for that
huh
not worth the effort
i mean, i am not suppose to get that
my effort is WAY lesser than that
anyway, i did not take that class as
a A-D grading class
what the heck!

going home
just printed codes
for tomorrow exam
wish me luck!

check this out

http://www.cprogramming.com/cgi-bin/quiz

i'm letting it go
for this time
no hope
no prayer

just fulffil
and give up!

wish this would be easier
i guess not

let go the grip
and fly high!!!

i will always have an option
to choose, rite?

sejak dua tiga menjak nie
there is only one thingie
in my head
bugging me!!!!
tak suka la

cepat la semester nie abis
cepat la ...
cepat la...
cepat la!!!!!

:(

got back from lab at 1.00 am last nite
snowing
and snowing still
till now
huh, this is not like march at all!

the official date fro spring is march 20
today is march 12
and snow here are still aroung 2 -3 feet
uwaaa...miss panas!!

tired
miss breakfast
manage to read deitel
and working today till 7
after that
go to aza's house and finish STAMP

lina
better bring your coat
yg water resistant
and kasut water resistant too
we are expecting rain+snow on wednesday

this is propably the most unpredicted
thing you would expect from me
( not so la, but stereotyping-wise )

i got his URL, which i find cool
and seems like nett got some relationship with this person
and i am sure Sera would love this site
~promoting malay language~

wanna know? klik here

i am all excited to tell what happen last nite
that i came here ( to the lab ) as soon as i got back from leaderquest this morning
without even glancing at my deitel & deitel book for c++

we were heading to the hotel
before leaving for Mall of America last nite
amerisuites, cheap and cool

what really excites me was
being the telephone operator
answering a ( just one though )phone call
for KS95 ( local radio and television station )
for kids radioathon

they are raising money
for local hospitals
that is U of M hospital
fairview - university
and gillete children's hospital
for cancer reserach and kids with health problems

and we were on air
for 5 minutes
and talked to teh deejays
van and cheryl
who was on the show
84 hours straight for the radiothon

no offend
but we malays
rarely do that
volunteering job
do we?

i was really upset
before i left yesterday
i got loads of work
and not so sure if leaderquest
was a worth sacrifice

i guess i have made the right choice

i got the chance to do things
i would never have done
hehehhehehehheheheh

even got the "every listener card"
and a CD as compliment from the
radio station
as we were helping them
sorting out stuff
and handing out the phamplet
to people at the mall

hey idzwan, i was also on the radio la!

:)

allready 12.48 pm
gonna leave at 3.00pm
some wisconsianian are here

certainly i have done anything
yet

try reading DE
can't understand

wanna read c++
i nead unix machine

wanna do stamp board
i am too lazy to bring my kits
downstairs
when i got back tomorrow afternoon

i will try to finish everythign before
Azlina got here
beacuse after that
it's heaven!

acetaminophene
that's the right name
for the medicine

still feel uncomfortable about
buying that laptop
so gonna get someone/some companies
to be the middleman
so that the money transcation will be safer

feel tired
maybe too much sleep last nite
after eating the cooked noddles in the kitchen
i slept
for 12 hours
hehehehehe
haven't got that in a while

certainly not this weekend
:(

suka tak suka
kene jugak gi klas
kul 7.00 pagi
rafique tepon
"ed, nak gi oriental tak?"

oh well
kene gi skolah bukan sbb rafique
tapi sbb ader quiz DE
hehehe

bukak2 mailbox
menang dah bid kat dellauction.com
dapat laptop sony viao pIII
850 mhz, dgn harga 1, 100
biar betul,
sbb selalu org rebut bid tuh, lagik2 kalau new, like this one,

serius tak paham apsal boleh menang
ker sebenarnyer org tuh tamau jual?
tatau la...
sbb murah la sony viao p III , USD 1,100
kalo convert , baru 4 ribu lebih

ntah la
nak bangga la nie
mat jan or rai
ed dah ader laptop
ekekekkekkekkekeke
later

-sleepy and aching everywhere--

few thoughts come to my mind
had a really good presenter at leaderquest meeting today
a avery empowerful lady
like Kak Har

a maghrib time
i got fever
headache and felt sooo cold
swallowed ace..phamine
( anak mak dah reti telan ubat, sket sakit jer telan ubat
sbb dah malas nak handle sakit, senang citer)
ader side effect ker aper ker, lain kali citer!

wrote a simple letter
about what i felt

that's it

dah wednesday dah?
auchhh
time just flew too fast time

i want a rest!!!
i deman a rest
can't help it
"it's our job as student, remember?"

do you still remember
how we used
friends foever
forever together
...................

finish ME pro E
yea yea yea
women studies?
i don't care
u care?

people are busy with their holidays
none of them updated their journals yet
fair huh?

3 weeks more before spring break
can't hardly wait
the Impatient Lady

in advance:
c++ written exam
DE 2nd midterm

others:
ME, leaderquest, speaking in middle school, baby sitting, AZLINA, duit etc

more coming up, in Nadhra's life, tomorrow
stay tune and be here tomorrow at the same time, same place
( but not McDonald )

(merapu aper nie sayang?)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

celebrate raya on my bed
in my class
eating egg sandwich and chips and salsa
not ketupat,
no meat
no sambal goreng

woke up by a phone call
-sera and her little brother, rai

---raya with many datelines---

well
this is a small world
the doctor that kakx kaky dan kakz
recommended Sera seeing
is someone whom me and my family know
very well

mak,
ayah,
igtkan doktor Yati?
along rasa till now she is still in that clinic
Zul and rakan2?
rite?

what a coincidence
what a small world
wow
still amazed

and i know another doctor
who is also super duper nice
but she is in HUKM , kl
Dr Harlina Halizah
an ObGy

and last but not least
Dr shafinaz ;)

small world

hmmm
first thing in the morning
was a TEST!!
( nv, i won't write ur name here )

went breakfast
read people's journal
( lepas fulfill physical needs, emotional needs plak la )
then check email
something caught my eye
"utk perepuan yg aku sayangi"

uiksss
it's just a poem send by someone
to MANY people
but it makes me think

you can say and want
such and such quality from someone
anyone in the world
but why is there good and bad people?
and who are we , actually, to judge them good or bad
"one's man junk is one's man treasure"
rite?

that poem is dedicated to women
( the old type, who just want to end up settling down, JUST settling down )
what makes me sicko ( kind of ) is
if all men ( sicko ) look for that PARTIcULAR , so defined good
why some people still got divorced after XX years of marriage
after XX years of love?

and who are THEM ( people who think the poem represent themselves )
to CHANGE the women they marry?
since
" to love to someone, is to let them be themselves"

weird
i do not believe that human can be changed by human
i believe any change any wo/man did is because of themselves
and what inspires them
( hidayah? )
that is NOT human factor there except the person's human

then now it make sense
why we defined bad and good people
though such comparison is relative
to our experience
:) :) :)

people will take their time
people will learn
people will change
"these is nothing such as constant except for the change itself"

no more words
just some reminders and mental notes for myself

*dinner mlm nie , kul 7.00*
keje from 3-7 pm
siapkan wost papers & web hunt

selamat hari raya, hua hua hua, ari raya ader klas..hua hua hua

location: recereational center a.k.a rec center
time: about 7.00 pm

rummaging through my wallte
looking for university ID a.k.a U card
"hello"
"hi"
klik
the door automatically open

"kak amani!"
"ed"
"mana kak farah,aza, noris ngan zaza?"
"ntahnyer, tadik telepon derang kater kul 7.00"
hahahhah"janji melayu tul"

"apsal kak amani bawak raket badminton?"
"igt nak main lepas swimming"
"ed, nak join"
"malas la, penat, tgk la beg nie, penuh buku, ader paper due minggu depan"
"ed nak pi solat sat la, tak semayang lagik, kang cakap kat derang jumpa kat bawah, dlm loker room"
"okay"

went downstairs
prayed
changed
went to pool
cooke 10
reserved for muslim girls today

swim, swim, can do la
with the help of the polystyrene board
2 laps
then collapsed!!!
swimming is really tiring woo

went back to noris's house
slept there last nite
came back at 8.00 am

have meeting for raya haji
at 4.30 at pyan's house

nak gi east bank
nak wat hw

*this time, you better finish it Nadhra! *

p/s weighed my weight
i lost 6 pounds since got back from DC
94 lbs compared to 100 lbs while at DC
and 95 lbs last year

ok dah delete!

malasnyer!!!!
women studies paper
from 5 pages
baru kat first and quarter page
malas!!!!!

aaaaa
gi swimming dulu
( ala, duk dlm pool jer, tak reti berenang la )

ehehe, cik nadhra
belum semayang maghrib
jgn lupesss

malas!!!!!
mlm nie nak duk atas bed,
curl dlm comforter
and read chicken soup
aaaaa...
best2...

cik nakal,
masak aper tuh???

malas
malas
malas

nak jadik ular sawa kekenyangan
skali skala kan?

* di harap pembaca tidak turut sama menjadik pemalas*
terutama yg nak masak tuh, hehehehhehehehehehhehe

another shiny day
it is warm
warm that i do not need my jacket
cold that ice don't melt
just nice!

still below 0 c
but warm for me

i am about to write
something that i might forget
one day
it's about my elementary school days

i was in the same class for 6 years
ungu = purple , is my class
there is about 43 of us
people keep coming and leaving

2 of my classmates
when i was elementray school is here
zahirah and hawa
zahirah is in new york
hawa is in indiana

best student of the class
through out the 6 years
was syukur
and second
is faisal
syukur went to SDAR
after standard 6
and faisal went to
SMKA batu lima
( betul ker nie? )

to be continued

today is myself day
went shopping at rosedale
looking for abercrombie la..
but can't find anything i like

so
now
i am old enough
filling my own income tax return form
huh
anak mak dah beso
isi borang income tax
kat US lak tuh
hehehheheheh

anyway, tuh la best way to get money
for now la
isi text return form
mine is a lot jugaks
since i rent my apartment for a year
and i work for 4 jobs during summer
and maintain 3 jobs
academic year

hahahhahahah
iskkkk
susahnyer nak isi
dah ler complicated
banyak kategori lak tuh

tak jadik terus nak isi tax return online
pos jer la
lambat dpt pun takper
tak reti la!!

napa la sblm dtg US
mak ayah tak ajar isi borang income tax?
ker ajar kat skolah ker
kan ker bagus
dari tercangak camnie
iskkk
iskk

byknyer responsibility!!

*dah jumpa 'my inspiration' masa shopping tadik, and it's a book! *