errr...if you wanna new updates about me, click on the new version, click here

i was a fool when i edited this page's HTML coding given by the blogger.com. then i realized,i have to start all over again because i lost my own understanding of my edition.

the new url is better enchance plus some introduction you won't get here.

go to here

tanpa border

muka baru

amsterdam
semalam belgium

the week before
rumah cik daun
www.cikdaun.sites.cc

dia tgh buat report tuh

jangan kacau dia

*sekejap lagi kene kejar bas kat holland international signboard*

rumah cik daun meriah

masa sampai kat portsmouth
kak noer amik ( betul tak eja? )
especially kak Ina ( special tribute sbb dia mintak ed jadik adik ipar dia)
adik dia study kat Kent england

handsome

hehehheheheh

kak pinkie ( aisyah ) dah lama rayu adik dia
kak emon sengih jer

makan hari-hari sedap
pastuh gi isle of wight

jalan-jalan

dan jalan lagi

sampai bila?

wait for me at the MSP I'national Airport Jun 6

from UK with love:

imperfection is beauty

to die is to reach imperfection

org london tak pakai seluar koyak
neither does of portsmouth

london remind me of malaysia
sama jer

takder la beza ngan malaysia

hmmm

assalamulaikum wbh
greetings sapiens!

saya akan meninggalkan dunia internet utk bercuti mulai mei 16 sehingga jun 8..sekiranya anda menghantar sebarang surat elecktronik, di harap anda tidak akan menunggu balasan lebih awal dari tarikh yg disebutkan.
----------------------------------------------------------------------
i am leaving for my vacation from this tuesday, may 16 untill jun 8...and if you in case did email me, please do not expect any replies sooner than that.

thank you
wassalam
nadhra

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i think i know a little bit better about myself
if i am angry about something
i will half an hour to recover from my anger
5 minutes will be me cursing around in a loud voice
10 minutes will be me regretting that i had cursed
7.5 minutes will be me wonderng why am is sitting without doing anything
7.5 minutes will be me pujuking my self and tell myself that everything will be allright
perfect 30 minutes

yeah
i was mad this morning
i already lost my voice
feeling feverish
no voice
cannot complains

lost my shower gel
somebody took it
i just have use it twice

then again mad at myself for losing my voice
hate it!!!!!

then take 30 minutes to recover
then left for lunch and laundry
okay

i fell better!

tuh jenel semalam

(if life success is measured by how many A's you got)
(i would end up being a golf course caretaker)
(by the time i graduated form college)

if life success is measured by how many A's you got
bill gates would not be microsoft CEO
and einstein would not have gotten a nobel prize
and bush would have not been elected as the US president

if life success is measured by how many F's you got
then john urheim would not be my physics professor
and william durfee would not teach me intro to ME
and chuck swanson would not teach me c++ programming

if life success is measured by how many B's and C's and D's you got
then college would not have exist
and schools would be abolished
and the word "graduation" would not exist
no dean's list

then what is life succes measured from?
according to Ralph Waldo Emerson
it is winning the brain of the scholars
and the affection of children
and the amount of smile you give a day
and how you see your world in a positive way

because it is not who that critize that counts
neither it is who watch and laugh that counts
but the person who play the main role of his/her life that counts

[me memujuk hati yg sedang lara, sigh! ]

masa-masa begini
lagi seronok kalau
org yg kita sayang ada di sisi
ada teman nak berbual
meluahkan fikiran
sbb masa-masa begini
all we need is one good companion
that we enjoy

masa-masa begini
barulah terasa menyesal
errr..better not
use prefer in the past
to open up and get access
( in another simplified word * .... *)
yealah
*no one wants to be lonely, nobody wants to cry*
hehehhehehh

masa-masa begini
bukan nya masa siang
bukan juga waktu orang berjaga
tapi di tengah malam
munkin apa yg perlu cuma
masa sendirian
masa menulis?
masa mencari
pengetahuan yg tidak mungkin dapat di cari
di masa-masa biasa

masa-masa begini
all we need is our own self understanding

mata ini
tidak mahu lelap
hmmmm...nantikan sesuatu?

* life is too short, don't spend it with people you don't enjoy *

woke at 6 ( awal kan? )
found that my throat is swollen
and it was hard to swallow my saliva
(gulp )
drink water
more and more water
and my hearbeat was like racing

then went to sleep
suddenly felt so hott
and remove the comforter
and still hot

woke up
and feel like want my mommy here

i caught a cold!!!
isk isk isk
want my mom
here and now!!

*suffering from swollen throat
unstable mind
and still hard to swallow saliva*

isk isk isk

diary = where imaginative life != real life
blog = where realf life HAS to be = real life ( plus some additives to make it flavourish)

the Differential Equations and Linear Algebra SUCKSSSS!
big time
all the calculations was tediuos and LONG
at least 2 pages per questions
and 3 pages for one questions
heck, it was worst than Midterm 3 which we can take home last time

well
done is done
one more finals
C++

thinking about food all the way now
pineapple pizza anyone?

blues? no blues, greens and reds and yellowss..
and sea breeze and moutain dew and twinkling stars
plus hot chocolate and cheezels, yum yum

STOPP

no way
at least not this week
exam, 2 papers
then move out to the new apartment
then shopp
buy some stuff
( should i or should i not buy a new back pack? my zipp is broken )
then sleeppppp

then off to airport
chicago
montreal
gatewick

lina went to a leadership camp
so we can't plan anything now

work
till seven
but tonite
the dining hall is open till midnight
which means

study in the dining hall!!

sad an upset still i am
the blues from about 5 years ago is back
accountability is checked
and the result
is not something pleasing

i am totally giving up (again, sigh! )

why does some people get the privilege from life?

and why does some people have to suffer from minor things?

and why do we keep judging people?

why?

history background
----------------------------------------

1996 - PMR ( memory ekk? )
location - SomewhereSometimeSomeplace

imagine life
when the person sitting next to you suddenly move back
leaving you
the only person in class sitting alone
every teacher who came in asked
" why are sitting alone polan si polan?"
and i can only shrugged my shoulder
like a plintiff in court
wasn't realy sure when the trial is over
when the judgement is going to stopped

during recess time
the punishment is not over yet
you have to eat your food by yourself
alone ( again, sigh )
and they
who did this
just looked away and pretend there is nothing wrong

when teachers started teaching
you are off on your own world
where only you exist
and no others matters

but once they are done
you are back to reality
and you walked home alone
wondering why they are treating you like this

no answers
nothing
just prayers and tears

year is over
the result is here
again you were attempted to think
so, how are they going to treat me again?

you name is called
then you are glad
that all the hardwork
was worth the while

and one by one they come
apologizing for the game they played
-----------------the end------------------------------
lemma:

and you never understand why
untill now
you are the one
among all people
among all students
to be the one to sit in the plaintiff chair

when the court ends
you win
but never understand what it is
that you did
make you to sit there and suffer the moments

while others
who obviously are the murderer ( of a soul )
are free to go
and fly high and get admired
and go through life
easier than yours

the question is
not life is fair or not
neither it is "qada' and qadar"
but why?
in the first place that people are like that

does that mean that YOU have to be like them too
in order to survive
and that they are right ( since they are the majority )
and you are living your life wrong?

---------------------------------------------------------------------

slept at 5 am last nite
tuh la, procastinate banyak2 lagi
padan muka
like or not
i forced myself to wake up before ten am
to catch my DE last class

my lips is bleeding
it hurts when i brushed my teeth this morning
it has been really dry lately

issues in my mind

*internship*
*medal*
*ceremony from MIC*
*summer travel*

seluar maroon yg terlalu panajng beli kat DC
where is it? i wonder

he did cook
heee ( me smiling from ear to ea )
seronok dapat dera org..

reza is here
i never mention anything abut him
just that if one day i wanna know who else is here
besides my best friend
it would be reza

anything else?
none
waiting for meeting of PERSISMA at 6
of maybe yung will come and get me here

weird
i have 6 pages long paper
and i am no where near the starting point
you don't want to know

kak har sent an email
dia bercuti after a while
innalillah
she had miscarriage lepas syawal arituh
so she was resting

BOT
she promised that i can stay at her "house"
if i manage to go to paris
she offered a tour , even!
and cook chicken rice
yeay for her

esok
lan kene masak utk ed
sbb ed best ( remember the mirror law? )
hahahahaha
we will see how good cook he is
( aida, might want to take note, hehe )

lain2?
tired of the saying
"man takes care of women"
buhsan se sgt dah
tolong la..
pathetic giler
at least word it in a different way
it sounds sucks giler
abis2 abisan

just because gender exist
it does not mean you have to define
EVERything down

just because we are different
does not mean we can't live together
without depending SOLELY on one another

just because women LOOK fragile
does not mean they are WEAK
and just because men HAVE POWER
does not mean the world is created for man

please
no more sexism
i am totally tired of this game
...........................................

can i be gender neutral?..it's easier that way

............................................

today is the weirdest day ever. i woke up as usual, around 8.45 fo my class at 9.05 am. took a shower, did not blow my hair, just wipe it nice and almost dry, tied it up and wear my tudung and baju kurung ( lagik ). off to school with 15 minutes late. when i arrived, Pilwon was doing some problems and it seems like he just started because the rest of the blackboard ( yes, with chalk ) was still clean. 'the problem looked very familiar', i talked to myself. " yeah, from midterm #3".....

then he did some review and i left for computer lab, check my mail....*meeting tomorrow*, *meet Steve*, *meet lan*....then off to EECsi to meet lan, he was late, 2 minutes late ( still counted ). we walked to CIC, to get my photos from steve, and try to get the extra t-shirt, but there was none left. walked again towards gateway center, tour around the school, yell a few stuff...he was darker than i last saw him, or is it me who became fairer? hehheheh...

brought him to my dorm and gave him the t-shirt, semayang and talked, 1.25 pm, my C++ lab is suppose to start. so i left him at the EECsi building and went downstairs.

well go there in lab on time. nobody i know was there. weird. i knocked, " is there a lab? ", he replied" not today", uh oh, no class....fine..took the shuttle and went back to dorm.

sleep
sleep
sleep

suddenly, an alarm went off. " not again", i thought, last time when the fire alram went off, it was just practicing, this time? i have no clue...it started to rain heavily outside, but i knew it was not a fire alarm, it came from the outside. since it has been a while since i had eaten with Kyoung rae, i woke her up and went to dinner. suddenly, there was an unclear annoucement, "....tenth wing ", i have no clue what is happening.
someone forced us to leave the dining hall , " go to the tenth wing basement", what tenth wing?....

people was swarming the stairs to the basement, " what is going on? ", people started asking, then suddenly a fire alarm ( this time i knew it was right because the sounds was exactly like the last time )...and a voice came out. " this is not a fire alarm, the TORNADO WARNING had been changed to SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WARNING...you can go back to where you were last time"...so i went back to the lobby to get to teh dining hall. me and kyoung rae peeked outside ( there was a big huge clear glass window facing the parking lot in the lobby area ), i saw small transparent ball coming down , " hailstorm! "...and kept watching,....

a few minutes later, there were no more hails, all left is heavy rain. i wnet back to get food tray in the dining hall...as soon as i get to the table, the sun was shining brightly and happily outside." hmm, i STILL HAVE TO GO TO CLASS?', my women studies class, hate it!...

so, check off from dining table, leaving kyoung rae with john, semayang asar, grabbed my school back pack and left for school. this time i walked to school, no buses. arrived at the hallway, saw my classmate " no class today, class canceled", in was like " what? one more class canceled?" huh..went there, put my name on the attendence sheet , and elave to write my weirdest journal, probpably the longest ever, ( besides my crushes ! )...

and i have to go back to my dorm.....:P

..................................................................
moral: count the word I in the above story...

green view everywhere
unfortunately my contact lens
would not fit in this morning
i tried a new oneabout 5 minutes ago
my eyes hurt
now it's feeling better

wonderig why
tomorrow
i am going to have 3 things important
presentation at Field Middle School
meeting with contact lens technician
( i need a new set, propably colored this time, green/hazel
what do you think mom? )
and then ME equipment return
and then propably meeting with PERSISMA

huh
what a day!
..........................................

yeah
my other best friend
who i have not seen in a year and 5 months
is here
he is here
and there is social tension in the atmosphere here

i have not talked to him live yet
other people are pressurizing me
i wanted to get away from that
don't talk
...................................

abercrombie shirts for girls sucks
sbb setiap kali angkat tangan
sure ternampak aper yg tak patut nampak
huh
*pakai ngan overalls next time or ngan 3/4 sleeves*
.........................................................

macam2?

none

.....

last nite i could not sleep
because i slept during my study time
when the real time come
i can't sleep
but i think you know that's not the only reason

well
today we are expecting thunderstorm
and i have to change clothes
from the ayu the baju kurung
to the seluar plastik and kemeja abercrombie
plus
a reversible flowery jacket

and have class at 2.30 till 4.30
then work from 4.30 till 7.00
then go home
and try to start studying for final
yes, i said try to, not must
hehehehhehe

the funny, unstable news is
er ist im Minneapolis
deng
suddenly everything rewinded back
when i have no solid, real things to look at
just memories in shades and in mind

.......................................................

like someone out there
i have had my "nervous" moments too
like now

worry-some friends

....................................................................

anyway
my guestbook is doing not fine
dunno why

happy day

cerita kelakar

ader org tak reti pakai hair remover
tertaruk kat rambut plak
abis botak
satu patch rambut kat atas kepala
terkosong tader rambut

hehehehheheheheheh

sian dia

.................................................

ich nicht understand
why ich nicht liebe undere persone
ist ich nicht same mit dem?

ich nicth liebe feeling liebe das

why?
why?

..............................................

on the other side,
there are people who are enjoying themselves

.......................................................

my muscles are aching
especially on my back
and on my thigh
urggghh
it feels like
i have not work out in a while and suddenly
jump to a heavy start workout

but i did not do that
all i did was
did my laundry
that had not been done for 3 weeks
maybe that's it

tonite
graduation nite
propably wearing the black ( and jarang ) baju kurung
maybe
maybe not
sbb tudung biru nie dah kene minyak smlm
hishh
kene iron tudung baru

hari nie pakai baju kurung lagik

was noch etwas zu eine(m?) tage!

aufwiedersehen!

*actually, i babbled about my baju kurung i'm wearing today, but blogger did not like that*

life?
going pretty well
though heard someone saying
i am more tembam then last time they saw me
( not true, but in front of my mom,
let's pretend it's true, else she will feed me NO! )

someone says i am more weirder than usual
ain't i already weird?
dude I AM WEIRD
admit it
fast!
( don't choke though )

(but not as weird as this writer person here )

DE dah siap
ader hw ME
response to robot show
wost paper final ( the least is 6 page, this time I AM REALLY DEAD )
and
carik transport how to get to Chicago O'hare
since nak amik flight gi london kat situ
hmmmmm

nak beli kete
tapi tak sure
$ 700
1987
tua dah kete tuh
ntah

well
later!

hahaha
very funny Writer Mister

day is over
robot is done
judges had judged
don't think gonna get high points

though one judge relate my robot to his experience
working in a paper factory
he has the same problem
the keep changing torque
and unbalance bearings

i am glad i am understood

else
need to go to leaderquest last meeting
before "graduation" ceremony this friday
mak: dpt invitation letter?
most of my leaderquesters parents is going to be there
since break is just around the corner

feelings?
straight line
nothing
tired
tak makan aper2 since last nite
really concentrating on my robot making
passion, if done
goes above all limitations kan?

one more funny story
remember that women studies paper
15 minutes before class?

i got an A again for that
she said it was veery impressive paper
duh!

i don't get it!

paper tuh tak direview langsung
grammar, jgn citer
rasa cam tongkang karam

----------------------------------------

resume?
rasa cam nak postedkan online jer
kyoung rae was looking at it
and criticized few stuff
made some changes
she said " it's a senior skills"

true

penat

esok kene study DE cam nak mati
sbb exam friday
hapak tak sentuh lagik
abis la kali nie
no more lucky charms
unless there is hope somewhere

my TA emailed
" see me tomorrow "
but that was yesterday
so, i guess he is not GLAD i am not there
he knew i need some help

language skills?
had torn off
can switch between 2 languages
but having trouble saying what i mean
it's usually saying what sounds nice
meaning " my own langugae "

duh

ooouuuuoooooo!

it was raining
she is hungry
she is in a hurry
it was cold

she stepped down from the campus connector and started walking
fast
and she decided she needed to be faster than that
she started running
the rain was pouring on her face
her shoe was not allowing her to run any faster than she is now
it was cold

her wedges shoe was making noises as she ran faster and faster
she has to stopped
there were people walking in her way
and the traffic light is red
she had to wait

once the traffic light changed
she ran again
towards that red building
aiming to get there in less than five minutes

she climbed up the stairs
trying to catch up her breath
and at the same time glanced to her wrist watch
her ears felt like breaking off from her head

she arrived there
and sat down
with sweat on her back
and rain drops on her face
and her jacket
she was gasping for air

then she left again
this time to another place
she did not run because her leg is aching
she kept walking in the rain
down the stairs
on the hallway
in the rain
into the puddle of water
up the stairs
third floor

she was there

the guys said she can't come in
she was late

she was about to burst into tears
and politely said "thanks"

and left
down the stairs
on the hallway
down the stairs
and slammed the door

took of her backpack
she took of her jacket
sat down on the toilet bowl
grabbed toilet paper
and cried
and gasped for air
and cried
and sobbed

no one was there

one part of herself saw she cried
and said
you can't cried for something you can't changed
it does not make sense
it is not logical

but she kept crying
for something she was unsure of
why
was she crying for
why was she so upset
she thought
she needed to let go
though she can't understand why

the other her
who also did not know why she cried
kept trying to stop her from crying
come on
it's okay
pls stop

then she stopped
she stand back
put on her jacket
grab her backpack
look into the mirror
and clean her red face

* i think she is fine now, at least i hope she is *

the fact that i am proud accomplishing the retreat
is unbearable
my head is spinning
and my body, well, i feel healthy
no probs
( alhamdulillah )

the fact that the retreat created bonds among friends
is making me vulnerable
hate making friends
cause i know i'll be losing them
( the current best TWO? both is attached, waiting time to let go ... )

the fact that Dr Seuss book "oh, the places you go" touched me
is making me more confused
where am i going ( say it again )
hmmmmmphhh
travel?
secret life? ( mine is to be a house-maid, ahaks )
stay in school my whole life? ( last option, unless the real world is REally cruel )
where again?

the fact that my homeworks is waiting for me
err..don't make me feel anything?
is wrong ( logically )
is right ( emotionally )
deng
dong
ding

*bila nak abis time keje nie?*

firewalking
speeches
people
bon fire
that's what i've been doing all weekend

the best: fire walking
dude,
i WALKED on fire
and it was like walking on nothing
well, it was HOT
but, yeah, it's okay
i don't burn or anything

seminars was fun
purposes
decisions
volunteering
( oh, yeah )

next year i am going
to get myself attached to something
propably something a little bit more than
LeaderQuest
ie student government
i dunno
i'll work it out

but
works is tones
and driving me nuts
i am backt o the real world
with my robots and C++
and math exams

too much
i don't even know if i can ever survive

wish me luck!

walking to school
thinking about my tutoring students
i got four
all first graders
cam jaga tadika

muhammad farah
like his name
is really "farah"
farah come from the word "farhun"
which means happy

muna
she is easily distracted
but easily memorize things
both farah and muna is from somalia

azizah
like her name
she looks and behave like a "hight" ones
she is soooo adorable
she is from palestine
you can imagine how cute they are

ashraf
reminds me of my brother aizat
from palestine
very hardworking
but quiet
and usually play on his own

--------------------------

hmmmmmmmmm....

remind me of my school days
1987

allright
with the help of one dollar saw
i managed to cut few birch woods in
the restroom of my dorms

finally
the usage of my kemahiran hidup classes
soldering
gergajiiing
electronics
and mechanics

errr...
tired
tapi ader meeting mlm nie
utk retreat this weekend
hmmm

later!

sometimes i don't really mean what i've said
neither what i've written
and so, don't give much damn about it
like i have no life at all except this blogger
( well , actually, i don't )

----------------------------------------
the above statement is
as a result of watching a movie
that contain too many four words in it
sorry

my ticket is all set
just waiting for it to arrive in my mailbox
hmmmm
tired?
quite
but i am fine
all happy
all smiley

my buddies
both are catching up with their finals
they gor only one more week
i got 2 weeks and 3 days before finals
can't hardly wait

i began feel like i hate attending the women studies class
it just sucks me out
hate it

met advisor
i have 2 choice
grad with 2 majors ( ME and IE )
or take co-op and grad with working experience
and have to wait till fall 2003 to graduate
little bit late

so, which would you advice me to take?

hehehehe
kak max
ed is smiling ;)

belive it or not
it is SNOWING
and IT"S APRIL
and I BROUGHT THE WRONG JACKET!

huh
hate it

but i am smiling
got meetign at 7 at Jess's house
the campus retreat is this WEEKEND
next week
i will be welcoming myself to my own created HELL

huh
SI NAKAL
call me ..hehhee..nak say thanks sincerely for the ****

and
and
there is more work waiting

counting how many nights i dreamt of home?
this semester: 4 times mimpi balik umah
dari airport to home

huwaaaa

tensennyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mood tadak
perut bloated
rasa nak ngamuk jer!!!!

huwaa
keje byk
keje byk
keje byk
keje byk

sigh

camna nie?

still waiting fot things
radioshack and axman tutup sbb easter
smlm dah kepenatan carik apartment
penghabisannyer
duk ngan Jeni ngan Andrea ngan Kyoun Rae
in 3 bedroom apartment
so today gi tgk

keje byk lagik
gatal beli sandel baru
hehe
mentang dah nak summer nie

robot tak siap lagik
c++ ader 42% lagik
DE exam lagik 2 weeks
so boleh relaks
paper tak buat lagik WOst

hmmmm
tgh wonder aper GPA sem nie
jahat tak?
mampus la dpt aper pun
janji happy
senang hati
hehheehhe

usha graduate schools
eh ader integrated program
engineering and management

hmmmmmmmmmmm

there is one thing going on here
that i don't wanna write about
since my MOM will be over worried
hehehehehhe
( intriguing without explaining :) )

hmmm
robot tak siap lagik
balik tutoring pagik nie
carik apartment
then buat *tooot*

then balik
buat laundry
lepak depan PC nie
mewonder mana la peginyer fiel yg Josh kasik
nak buat biographies
iskk, masa nak buat takder,
masa nak tak nak buat, ader

paper wost
tak mula hapa lagik
ader saper2 nak kasik motivasi
di kala2 kebosanan nie
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

wondering what is missing here

Lina, i got socks here
hehehheheh

weather report
the sky is blue
missisipi river is flooding
traffic is bad
construction is everywhere
buses are running late
birds chirping in the middle of the night
hmmmm
suddenly warm
when it should be snowing ( yes, snowing )
and showering

road is dusty
people is quite impatient everywhere
homework is inline

have not done a thing

for peopel who studies DE
remember:
increase power of x to every non homogeneus solution
according to the right side of given equation.
kalau tak
marakah = 0
tensionnyer!

have not written in days
past this 3 days
i stayed at school till like 2 am
finishing my Pro E thingie
the last assignemnt

skipped 2 classes this morning
one class might not worth skipped
because he might
have started on the new chapter today
good news though
because yesterday
i got my one to one tutoring about introduction
to that chapter

and the other class
we could not have learn anything new
heheh
because the final project is going on till
2 weeks from now

i am tired
but we are alsmot there
just need to hang in there!

take a deeeeeppp breath!

my sleeping pill bugs me all day
i hate it
i took half of that crap to get so sleep
and it makes me sleep all day
but i did not miss class
just miss the talking in class
:)

this is going to be a REALLY honest thoughts
i figured out now WHY i did not learn
nor take driving licencse in malaysia
because it is EXPENSIVE
here, more or less, you have a car
and car is way cheaper here too

and know how to drive
( just get your mom or dad )
and take the written test
which is ONLY about RM 50
and take the practical test
( and i don't think it is more than RM 100)

you CAN get your license

as far as i remember
in malaysia
it costs around RM 600
( this is the number when i last left malaysia,
one and half years ago)
because of the class hours requirement
and DRIVING in malaysia IS
a measure of WEALTH
( i don't believe this at first, but now i do )

the fact it came to my common sensical is
when i was giving out presentation in school
there was a "culture" brochure that
very much describe things
i did not notice i practice and believe in

one of the description goes like this
" owning car is a measure of wealth in Malaysia"
i was mad
at first
now that i look back
yeah, i WOULD not be able to afford a car
if i am in Malaysia now
it is TOO expensive
( the skill and the thing to drive )

wait till i am done with school
( but takmo la hutang2 nak beli kete )
sigh!
enough thinking!

today
woke up late
have to to work
and figuring out how to finish Pro E
else
i may take amilin's copy
sebagai balasan programming
hehhehehehhe

thoughts:

do i look like a problem solver to you?
lately, too many things had been happening
and everyone is coming for my ears
(mentang2 la ears nei free :) )

tader la mengomplen
tapi ader la jugak
hehehehehe

----------------------------------------------

location: Mechanical engineering lab, Silicon graphic machine
time : 1 am
# people : 5

pro E assignemt is due tomorrow
and for the first time
there is 4 sheets of engineering drawing due
and pretty much
one sheet need more than 3 hours to be finished
with more than one potrusion and more than one cut
and chamfering and rounding
because this is the ultimate proof
of how far your design skills is
to apply for co op and intership
it was the first time
i saw none of the pro e machine is empty
24 hours a day

man: " it's already midnight, aren't you going home?"
girl: " na - ah, need to do the explosion view"
man: did you do the key way?"
girl: " i did, but with the wrong dimension, can't figure out how to suppress the other system
i gave up"
man: "this is so time consuming!"
girl:" yeha, but i like it, it's better than reading books and memorizing things"
man:" but we have other things to do"
girl: " i like it, it make me fall "deep" into it and having fun even though the whole thing can go wrong, you can always try again"
man: "yeah, later baby, i am DONE with this"

this is what i am going to do

Mechanical engineering, System and Design

my first experience driving
it was Chevy Blazer, 4WD
and automatic
and on the left side of the road

Erika decided that i need to know how to drive
so, yesterday bwfore going to Sari's party
she picked me up at EECsi ( i was finishing my ProE there )
and we headed off to her housing are
and changed seats

the feeling?
not bad
she said i am a good driver for a first time
i turn left and right
and also make a turn on an end street
(u turn?)

got some coffee
pick everybody else
and headed to Richfield
Sari is having a party for her
second degree black belt in taekwando

definition of party varies
this one
is a family like party
about 9
we left
and headed to Anthony's place
to watch a movie
what a house for a guy
heheheheheh

got back in my room around
1.00 am
talked to kyoung rae till
3 .00 am

sleepppppp

atthalj alazraq---Arab
blau Eis Würfel--German
blueicecube--english
aiskiubbiru--malay

azul hielo cubo---spanish
bleu glace cube--french
blu ghiaccio cubo--italiano
azul gelo cubo--portugesse

some language learning here.

---------------------------------------------

smlm terbaca pasal kak zira buka puasa best2
jeles plak
ed posa gaks
tapi buka dlm klas ( lagik )
snickers ( mini bar ) ngan coklat reese
ngan air water kooler
tragis
dan sedih

today
found out that i can work 20 hours per week
hehehe

got 2.5 extra hours
becos john got some frat work to do
( he does look like someone who is in fraternity,
way too cute to be a "normal" student )

byk nyer keje!!

leaderquest retreat is in 2 weeks
paperwork melambak2
-ed incharge buat folder and biography
robot lagik
final projek c++ lagik
exam 3 DE lagik
paper wost lagik
huwaaaa

end

i am way too late for class
set up alarm at 6.09 am
never woke up till the phone rang
it was the computer company
and it was 9.25 am
class started at 9.05 am

now
waiting before i can catch the TA
during his office hours
we have a Quiz in the lecture tomorrow

need to go to Ax-man
to buy some robot stuff
need to start building one today too
and need to calculate the torque
and yada yada :)

meine beste frieund
i had a BAD dream last nite
has anything happen to you this week?

hope everything and everybody is okay

smile!

last nite awin kasik one sweet hadith
but lupa nak copy
but i got this one mailed to me
by dailyayatservice

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
006.AL-ANAAM.032 What is the life of this
world but play and amusement? But best is the
home in the hereafter, for those who are
righteous. Will ye not then understand?

do you feel better?

my opinion
things that happen in life IS related
yesterday, the same day i found someone's wallet
and return it
i lost my watch at the same time

amazingly
i don't feel bad about it
maybe because the 2 good things that happen yesterday
and it kind of cover one another

today
the person who found my watch
emailed me and return it back
wow
that is soo wonderful

last nite
i had a reallt 'tough' conversation
which is too complex to be explained
and kind of related to me
personally
and i don't think i can discuss it with anyone

got to go
ader homework due in one and half hours

is everything that happen to you is related ever?
like to balance out your "good luck"
you will have a "bad luck"
or things just happen?

any answers?

too many things happen in the begnning of the day
that almost ruin my mood

flashback

i leave early today
even had breakfast
even solat subuh awal pada waktunya

but since the traffic is SOOO bad
because of the bridge is being repaired
ala, the bridge acrossing misissipi river
the other side of the bridge is open to 2 way traffic
causing it to jammed

also added by the fact that
there is so many construction along the sidewalk
where we usually wait oft he bus
heiyaaa
i have to walk back 2 and half blocks
to get to class
sooo menyusahkan!

so tak best!

------------------------------------------

school is OKAY
mom, i DID NOT skip any class
hehehehheheheehh

one of the guy who brought his digicam send this this morning
his name is Vincent Li-Shin



my host dad is the one standing on your left, his name is Larry Muenchow



find me!, this is in front of minnesota international center



yg pakai baju kurung, duduk kiri skali, with spectacles is chyi and the girl with a black blouse and black hair is stefani . both are from malaysia studying at Southwest State University.

basuh baju
and tgh berusaha berfikir dlm bahasa melayu
balik2 terus clean up things
kemas laci
sambung kemas almari/bookcase

serak sungguh laci ed
and tak jumpa plak kad2 yg org kasik
harituh ader, ed letak mana ntah
terus putus asa nak carik

benda camtuh la
kalai di carik
tadernyer
kalau tak dicarik
ader jer depan mata
serius tak paham

balik tadi
weather cantik
panas
walaupun mlm smlm snow kat tracy
nyenyak giler tido
kepenatan sbb lepas bercakap dlm klas
terus kene set up booth utk mesia

jumpa dgn 2 org budak mesia chinese
dari Southwest state univ
derang bawak bendera, peta dan siap berbaju kurung
menarik org malaysia nie
terasa ptriotik skejap

derang pun citer
makanan kat sini tak sedap
dah buhsan makan pizza ngan french frie
stefani kater " lebih rela makan magi kari"
dia masak kari kat umah :)
chyi pulak dah nak grad sem nie
lepas nie dia nak dtg minneapolis carik keje

hmmm

satu benda ed notis pasal tracy yg lain dari minneapolis
selain dari populasi yg kecik ( 2 ribu lebih jer )
dan byk ladang2
dan senyap
dan ramai org tua
dan byk kucing
dan byk kanak2

air kat tracy ( air paip )
agak berakali berbanding air kat minneapolis
kater sue
sbb air kat tracy dari wells ( spring water )
and then air dia jenis Soft water
so kulit tak der ler sekering kalau mandi ngan hard water

tahu kan aper beza soft water ngan hard water?

here i am in tracy high school
likewise this is a very interesting visit
in 2 days now, i think i have learn more about people
then i have in a month of socializing around in minneapolis
interesting people

this time
there is Graciela again
with her fiancee, max
jenni and vincent from taiwan
and kun from china

we traveled for 3.5 hours yesterday
and that was a " foggy " trip all the way
the temp had stayed the same and there is no sign of warming up

i am on my break
i will be speaking in 3 more classes
should be very interesting
i talked to one this morning
we had girl name Shanna who asked a bunch of questions

hehehehhehehe
she reminded me when i was like her few years ago

otherwise
here i am on a macintosh machine
writing up my journal before lunch time

my host for this weekend is
larry and sue muenchow
they had a farm
and yes
like old mcdonald had a farm
it was big and quiet
had a really good time here so far

got email from jess and yung
jess was "angry' that she did not heard from me at all this break
she said " better have some explanation nadhra!"
and yung canceled the trip to stillwater because of the weather

else
i can't attend the tutors meeting this saturday
in the islamic school

pretty much it blog

and yeah
yesterday, before i left
i managed to get jenni to move all my stuff
so i bookcase and my drawers are all set now
it took me 2 hours to unpack and clean the mess
before kyoung rae got back from rec center
hahahahha

bagai bayu
berlalu
..hatiku merindu...
-something on era when i was opening this blog-
really like that song, once upon time..:)

almost finish moving my stuff
from zaza's and noris's house
helped by pyan and awin and zaza
pyan an awin supppose to leave for champaign tonite
with some few other people
but they have gotten back yet from duluth

and so
pyan was geram at me
( ha , lan now you got another fren who want to cubit me, hahaha )
sbb at sometimes noon
he was wondering if i need help with a car
because he just rent one
to go to champaign visiting his buah hati
( farah baca nie, jgn blushing plak :) )

and i said no
after maghrib
i changed my mind
called them asking for help

and pyan was like
" apsal tadik jual mahal?, kan skang dah takleh tolong lama2?
tadik org offer jual mahal, skang nak suh org buat 2 trip plak "
i thought my stuff is not that "much"
but i guess yes
i need 2 trips to get all my stuff to middlebrook

and he kept asking
"tuh la suka sgt jual mahal"
"saper suh? apsal jual mahal?"

-hahahahhahahahahhaha-

so, tomorrow still gonna need
jennifer's help to move my stuff
need to do that early though
since i am leaving for tracy at 2 pm
and be back on saturday
tak pack barang lagik
-sigh!-

haa....did not get that job la
since i can't work more than 10 hours
they want people with people with at least 10 hours working per week
-sigh!-
wait till summer la then
for 2 jobs

me and kyoung rae
have decided to move out
this summer
since we can't keep our stuff
in this dorm
-sigh!-

another problem after one problem
can't help it

lan, dah jumpa rumah?
ker merempat?:)

-----me-----

was ist "yak"?
Bot jawab Bot, :)

job interview
went well
dunno
applied for that job because to regain
my language skills
language
once learned , need some practice
else, fogotten

stomatache
have not eaten chilli's food in a while
when i ate one last nite
my stomach goes on war
and still going on there...

arghhhhh
mak
first thing when i got back
no chilli yeah?

yesterday:
tried calling sera, she was not at home at time, watch TV, sleep

woke up at 12.00
got job interview at 1.00 pm
library job, got to do with arabic language
have not used that in a while
so , looking for ways to use that

while at the library
looked for java, unix, html books

then off to payroll service'
to get my w-2 form
which they send to malaysia
then
tried to get some food
have not eaten anything
no food
but, hey i am fine!

got meeting for international center at 4.00 pm
and usrah at 6.00 pm

then, i am done

note
?????

i am not that angry la...

heeheheheheheheheh
spending my first 2 days
talking to people
i have missed a lot
and like a lot talking to

sounds like they are all okay and happy

seriously
it is fun just to sit around
with nothing to do
if something came up in your mind
you can either do it now
or wait
nobody can say anything about that!

but i can' t live like this forever
maybe sometimes like this
but not all the time
or else i can go crazy
just sit around
huhuhuhuhuhuhu

.......................................

what's wrong with the server which hold my blog?
why is it not publishing
else i will open a new one then
what da ya think?

like sera
i have found people who has problems
with me writing down my thoughts out loud
i am sorry
but this is my blog
if you are having problems reading this

GO AWAY!

maybe ed should taruk disclaimer also here
so that people who brings my thoughts
into their dreams, can stop doing that

hell, get your own blog or at least write down in my guestbook....

don't just keep things to your dreams
else i won't know!

byk nak cerita nie
sbb dah 2 hari tak tulis journal
kepala tgh sakit, tapi tak kira nak cerita jugak!

mlm kelmarin ( 2 hari lepas )
kyoung rae tak balik bilik
then last nite dia tak balik jugak till like 9 pm
so kiterang
me , john, janet ngan jenni
decided to report pada CA floor
sbb dia tak penah buat camnie
no phone calls
no emails
dah more than 48 hours since i last saw her
risau!

and so
resident's hall director dtg
police dtg
sumer dtg soal siasat
buat missing person report
dahler hari nie exam DE
pastuh assignment ME yg electronic tuh due
mmg cramped giler la last nite

and so
around 12 midnite
she came home
so
call la balik sumer org2 tadik, kasik tahu
si missing person dah balik
police tuh cakap2 la ngan dia

went to bed like 2 am
i was so nervous about today
that i can't hardly sleep
woke up at 8 am
went to breakfast
and then up and go to school

susah giler nak decide aper nak pakai gi skolah
it is suppose to be spring now
but the wind is so chilly
that i still need to put double layer on

- 3/4 sleeve white, pooh bear tshirt
-abercrombie shirt, kotak2 dark blue, green stripe and white stripe
-favourite pants ( liz clairbone, ala, reject shope US mari, slack type )
sarung tudung putih
and jacket yg reversible
sarung stokin dark blue
snickers
grab backpack
off to school

sampai klas 10 minutes early for the DE exam
takut nie
sbb tak prepare sgt
dpt2 paper
terus jawab
"hentam jer la"

abis jer exam
gi kedai carik battery utk assignment ME yg due kul 2.30 pm
smlm dah assemble part
so kene download program dlm STAMP board
kene pulak
pin4 tuh rosak, takleh terima input

takper
gi klas dulu
next klas at 11.15 am
c++
dpt balik midterm yg bernilai 20% from final
average class 62 from 100
org sebelah ed dapat 98 from 100
ed dapat, 77

abis klas c++
lari gi ME building
jumpa preofessor Durfee
komplain pasal stamp board
sbb ramai sgt org kat situh
tgh queu utk tanya soalan
gi print PRo E dulu

jumpa minah yg ader masalah board gaks
dia kasik idea
tuko wire on pin4
to pin 6
tiko porgram
download skali lagik
alhamdulillah
berfungsi like 15 before klas tuh mula

so
went to that last class
ME 2011
intro to mechanical engineering

lega sumer assignment dah siap
here i am now
waiting for leaderquest meeting at 6
before that nak gi dinner dulu
lapo sgt2 nie
hari nie lari sana, lari sini

esok dah boleh enjoy!!
secara tak rasminyer
my spring break has begun

tomorrow
one class
then finish c++ lab
wanted to go to target
fixed my watch ( not mine, my mom's)
( jam yg mak dapat masa anugerah pekerja tuh,
bateri dia dah abis,
pinjam lagik yek mak, sampai grad! )

then tido
sebest2nyer
saper yg suka gayut tuh,
hehehehhehehe
sabtu pagik and ahad pagik

siap la, org dah cuti nie!

this site is highly recommended
for people who like to play
with javascript
without having to think and build it up

a good resource for personal homepage
for lazy people !

here it is!

hmmm
not much had been going on

trying to sit down and began plan
for spring break
but it seems like there exist no free time

another school visit
driving to stillwater with yung
move stuff to middlebrok
buy laptop
( for real this time)
sleep
eat
watch movies!
robot

my unorganized thoughts

-----------------------------------------

favourite quotes from songs:

" if it makes you happy, i can't be that bad! "

" if you want to be somebody else, change your mind "

:)

sedih
lina dah balik
rasa ilang something
from the daily life

tapi ed mmg takleh nak "simpan" dia pun
sedih
missing something again

lepas2 tuh terpikir
kalau dia end up
ngan mamat tuh ( namanya dirahsiakan )
ala....
kene "share" pulak
hahahhahahahah

takper la
org wujud kat dunia nie
bukan utk kiter "simpan"
tapi utk pengalaman
dan pembelajaran

tuh la kan
kalau satu masa nanti
gi jauh2
( skang pun jauh, 12 hours drive dari sini )
ker
setahun skali jumpa ker
uwa uwa uwa
nasib every week gayut
hehehhehehehe

emotional sket hari nie
maaf
she left around 7 am this morning
rindu nyer!

2 am
got back to my room
zaki la, masak lambat
sampai ilang selera tunggu

yesterday
3 hours ngadap PC
abis
balik bilik, kemas bilik yg sgt tidak kemas itu
and call epul

epul dtg amik
pi Mall of America
jammed la plak

while we were there
me and Suria non stop sakat epul ngan lina
hehehhehe
provokasi yg sgt best
can't help it
enjoyed it too much !

bought A and F stuff
three pieces
seluar, kemeja ang t -shirt
cleareance for spring collection

nak balik rumah!!

what i was expecting did happen
the chapter i am suppose to work on
turn out to be something i did not understand
and so, kantoi la quiz pagi nie
ehhehehehhehehhehe

no komen

working on my c++
if you visit my blog everyday
i mean thusrdays
this is all you will read till the end of this semester

hehehhehehheh
lina ader
sumer best!
yg tak best pun jadik best
susah camnie

allrite
woke up late
lina arrived around 12.30 am last nite
miss DE class

try hard not to miss the exam
it was quit easy
but require faster time writing it down
so many questions
so little time
everybody was complaining about it


lan, what had happen to you?
ha...gi Disney World, yekk?
joli sakan ka?
jeles la nie,
pi study la, minggu depan ader 5 exam
hehehehheheh

also got another midterm next week
another DE
sera, are we still on it?
( ed rasa cam dah nak kalah jer )

tomorrow DE quiz
on characteristic value and characteristic value
and mlm nie lina gonna overnite in my room
hehehhehehe

what da think gonna happen?

energetic day
cool!

lina have not gotten here yet
on her way from madison
she told me they will leave after Asr'

me
remember the paper i told you guys about?
the women studies paper?
i got A- for that
huh
not worth the effort
i mean, i am not suppose to get that
my effort is WAY lesser than that
anyway, i did not take that class as
a A-D grading class
what the heck!

going home
just printed codes
for tomorrow exam
wish me luck!

check this out

http://www.cprogramming.com/cgi-bin/quiz

i'm letting it go
for this time
no hope
no prayer

just fulffil
and give up!

wish this would be easier
i guess not

let go the grip
and fly high!!!

i will always have an option
to choose, rite?

sejak dua tiga menjak nie
there is only one thingie
in my head
bugging me!!!!
tak suka la

cepat la semester nie abis
cepat la ...
cepat la...
cepat la!!!!!

:(

got back from lab at 1.00 am last nite
snowing
and snowing still
till now
huh, this is not like march at all!

the official date fro spring is march 20
today is march 12
and snow here are still aroung 2 -3 feet
uwaaa...miss panas!!

tired
miss breakfast
manage to read deitel
and working today till 7
after that
go to aza's house and finish STAMP

lina
better bring your coat
yg water resistant
and kasut water resistant too
we are expecting rain+snow on wednesday

this is propably the most unpredicted
thing you would expect from me
( not so la, but stereotyping-wise )

i got his URL, which i find cool
and seems like nett got some relationship with this person
and i am sure Sera would love this site
~promoting malay language~

wanna know? klik here

i am all excited to tell what happen last nite
that i came here ( to the lab ) as soon as i got back from leaderquest this morning
without even glancing at my deitel & deitel book for c++

we were heading to the hotel
before leaving for Mall of America last nite
amerisuites, cheap and cool

what really excites me was
being the telephone operator
answering a ( just one though )phone call
for KS95 ( local radio and television station )
for kids radioathon

they are raising money
for local hospitals
that is U of M hospital
fairview - university
and gillete children's hospital
for cancer reserach and kids with health problems

and we were on air
for 5 minutes
and talked to teh deejays
van and cheryl
who was on the show
84 hours straight for the radiothon

no offend
but we malays
rarely do that
volunteering job
do we?

i was really upset
before i left yesterday
i got loads of work
and not so sure if leaderquest
was a worth sacrifice

i guess i have made the right choice

i got the chance to do things
i would never have done
hehehhehehehheheheh

even got the "every listener card"
and a CD as compliment from the
radio station
as we were helping them
sorting out stuff
and handing out the phamplet
to people at the mall

hey idzwan, i was also on the radio la!

:)

allready 12.48 pm
gonna leave at 3.00pm
some wisconsianian are here

certainly i have done anything
yet

try reading DE
can't understand

wanna read c++
i nead unix machine

wanna do stamp board
i am too lazy to bring my kits
downstairs
when i got back tomorrow afternoon

i will try to finish everythign before
Azlina got here
beacuse after that
it's heaven!

acetaminophene
that's the right name
for the medicine

still feel uncomfortable about
buying that laptop
so gonna get someone/some companies
to be the middleman
so that the money transcation will be safer

feel tired
maybe too much sleep last nite
after eating the cooked noddles in the kitchen
i slept
for 12 hours
hehehehehe
haven't got that in a while

certainly not this weekend
:(

suka tak suka
kene jugak gi klas
kul 7.00 pagi
rafique tepon
"ed, nak gi oriental tak?"

oh well
kene gi skolah bukan sbb rafique
tapi sbb ader quiz DE
hehehe

bukak2 mailbox
menang dah bid kat dellauction.com
dapat laptop sony viao pIII
850 mhz, dgn harga 1, 100
biar betul,
sbb selalu org rebut bid tuh, lagik2 kalau new, like this one,

serius tak paham apsal boleh menang
ker sebenarnyer org tuh tamau jual?
tatau la...
sbb murah la sony viao p III , USD 1,100
kalo convert , baru 4 ribu lebih

ntah la
nak bangga la nie
mat jan or rai
ed dah ader laptop
ekekekkekkekkekeke
later

-sleepy and aching everywhere--

few thoughts come to my mind
had a really good presenter at leaderquest meeting today
a avery empowerful lady
like Kak Har

a maghrib time
i got fever
headache and felt sooo cold
swallowed ace..phamine
( anak mak dah reti telan ubat, sket sakit jer telan ubat
sbb dah malas nak handle sakit, senang citer)
ader side effect ker aper ker, lain kali citer!

wrote a simple letter
about what i felt

that's it

dah wednesday dah?
auchhh
time just flew too fast time

i want a rest!!!
i deman a rest
can't help it
"it's our job as student, remember?"

do you still remember
how we used
friends foever
forever together
...................

finish ME pro E
yea yea yea
women studies?
i don't care
u care?

people are busy with their holidays
none of them updated their journals yet
fair huh?

3 weeks more before spring break
can't hardly wait
the Impatient Lady

in advance:
c++ written exam
DE 2nd midterm

others:
ME, leaderquest, speaking in middle school, baby sitting, AZLINA, duit etc

more coming up, in Nadhra's life, tomorrow
stay tune and be here tomorrow at the same time, same place
( but not McDonald )

(merapu aper nie sayang?)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

celebrate raya on my bed
in my class
eating egg sandwich and chips and salsa
not ketupat,
no meat
no sambal goreng

woke up by a phone call
-sera and her little brother, rai

---raya with many datelines---

well
this is a small world
the doctor that kakx kaky dan kakz
recommended Sera seeing
is someone whom me and my family know
very well

mak,
ayah,
igtkan doktor Yati?
along rasa till now she is still in that clinic
Zul and rakan2?
rite?

what a coincidence
what a small world
wow
still amazed

and i know another doctor
who is also super duper nice
but she is in HUKM , kl
Dr Harlina Halizah
an ObGy

and last but not least
Dr shafinaz ;)

small world

hmmm
first thing in the morning
was a TEST!!
( nv, i won't write ur name here )

went breakfast
read people's journal
( lepas fulfill physical needs, emotional needs plak la )
then check email
something caught my eye
"utk perepuan yg aku sayangi"

uiksss
it's just a poem send by someone
to MANY people
but it makes me think

you can say and want
such and such quality from someone
anyone in the world
but why is there good and bad people?
and who are we , actually, to judge them good or bad
"one's man junk is one's man treasure"
rite?

that poem is dedicated to women
( the old type, who just want to end up settling down, JUST settling down )
what makes me sicko ( kind of ) is
if all men ( sicko ) look for that PARTIcULAR , so defined good
why some people still got divorced after XX years of marriage
after XX years of love?

and who are THEM ( people who think the poem represent themselves )
to CHANGE the women they marry?
since
" to love to someone, is to let them be themselves"

weird
i do not believe that human can be changed by human
i believe any change any wo/man did is because of themselves
and what inspires them
( hidayah? )
that is NOT human factor there except the person's human

then now it make sense
why we defined bad and good people
though such comparison is relative
to our experience
:) :) :)

people will take their time
people will learn
people will change
"these is nothing such as constant except for the change itself"

no more words
just some reminders and mental notes for myself

*dinner mlm nie , kul 7.00*
keje from 3-7 pm
siapkan wost papers & web hunt

selamat hari raya, hua hua hua, ari raya ader klas..hua hua hua

location: recereational center a.k.a rec center
time: about 7.00 pm

rummaging through my wallte
looking for university ID a.k.a U card
"hello"
"hi"
klik
the door automatically open

"kak amani!"
"ed"
"mana kak farah,aza, noris ngan zaza?"
"ntahnyer, tadik telepon derang kater kul 7.00"
hahahhah"janji melayu tul"

"apsal kak amani bawak raket badminton?"
"igt nak main lepas swimming"
"ed, nak join"
"malas la, penat, tgk la beg nie, penuh buku, ader paper due minggu depan"
"ed nak pi solat sat la, tak semayang lagik, kang cakap kat derang jumpa kat bawah, dlm loker room"
"okay"

went downstairs
prayed
changed
went to pool
cooke 10
reserved for muslim girls today

swim, swim, can do la
with the help of the polystyrene board
2 laps
then collapsed!!!
swimming is really tiring woo

went back to noris's house
slept there last nite
came back at 8.00 am

have meeting for raya haji
at 4.30 at pyan's house

nak gi east bank
nak wat hw

*this time, you better finish it Nadhra! *

p/s weighed my weight
i lost 6 pounds since got back from DC
94 lbs compared to 100 lbs while at DC
and 95 lbs last year

ok dah delete!

malasnyer!!!!
women studies paper
from 5 pages
baru kat first and quarter page
malas!!!!!

aaaaa
gi swimming dulu
( ala, duk dlm pool jer, tak reti berenang la )

ehehe, cik nadhra
belum semayang maghrib
jgn lupesss

malas!!!!!
mlm nie nak duk atas bed,
curl dlm comforter
and read chicken soup
aaaaa...
best2...

cik nakal,
masak aper tuh???

malas
malas
malas

nak jadik ular sawa kekenyangan
skali skala kan?

* di harap pembaca tidak turut sama menjadik pemalas*
terutama yg nak masak tuh, hehehehhehehehehehhehe

another shiny day
it is warm
warm that i do not need my jacket
cold that ice don't melt
just nice!

still below 0 c
but warm for me

i am about to write
something that i might forget
one day
it's about my elementary school days

i was in the same class for 6 years
ungu = purple , is my class
there is about 43 of us
people keep coming and leaving

2 of my classmates
when i was elementray school is here
zahirah and hawa
zahirah is in new york
hawa is in indiana

best student of the class
through out the 6 years
was syukur
and second
is faisal
syukur went to SDAR
after standard 6
and faisal went to
SMKA batu lima
( betul ker nie? )

to be continued

today is myself day
went shopping at rosedale
looking for abercrombie la..
but can't find anything i like

so
now
i am old enough
filling my own income tax return form
huh
anak mak dah beso
isi borang income tax
kat US lak tuh
hehehheheheh

anyway, tuh la best way to get money
for now la
isi text return form
mine is a lot jugaks
since i rent my apartment for a year
and i work for 4 jobs during summer
and maintain 3 jobs
academic year

hahahhahahah
iskkkk
susahnyer nak isi
dah ler complicated
banyak kategori lak tuh

tak jadik terus nak isi tax return online
pos jer la
lambat dpt pun takper
tak reti la!!

napa la sblm dtg US
mak ayah tak ajar isi borang income tax?
ker ajar kat skolah ker
kan ker bagus
dari tercangak camnie
iskkk
iskk

byknyer responsibility!!

*dah jumpa 'my inspiration' masa shopping tadik, and it's a book! *

hahha
good mood today

"happy little shiny people"

dunno what make my day

maybe the wiring on STAMP board
maybe craig
maybe izham
maybe zaza
maybe it's just me!

one entry perpage
that short
is not worth seeing and reading

rite?

*on my way to meeting people*
pretend Nadhra, pretend..hahahahhahahahha

suicide awareness and prevention center
nananannanannananannanananannanannanana

11.57 at midnight

forgot to say thank you
to axxurie, who sent a bunch of postcards
from japan
what was very nice of you

if there is anything i can do
email me
or write here

thanks again

one more hour before C++
butterfly everywhere

i am upset
me and kyoung rae
cannot aplly for the same room we
for next academic year
because the whole building is full

but i think
logically thinking
i should not be upset
because we can always apply for other room
and i can always apply for single room
right?

maybe i am just too tired
that little things excite me too much

ME assign due tomorrow
wost due friday

housing application?
no where yet to be seen

math TA send email
apologizing
he did not show up
because he is sick

aaa..cheer up
smile

but i do not want to meet
anyone i know
can i?

time: approximately 5 hours and 15 minutes to c++ exam
location: lind hall computer lab

today is the reapplication day
for residence housing
me and kyoung rae went to the computer lab
after breakfast this moning

i went to recitation for DE
and the TA was not there
so
like half an hour before the class end
half of the class left

so tired last nite
slept early
but nervous of today's exam

i was so scared of yesterday's issue
and i slept , dreaming about it
huh
this time

i tried to let go
if it still does not work
i guess this spring break
i got not only house cleaning to do
but also "mind cleaning"

and don't worry
i am okay
hehehehhehhe

location: lind hall, taylor center ( undergraduate study lounge )
table: very end
people: me & izham

me: risau la , my result for the last 2 semesters had been lower than most people
izham: ( quiet )
me: rasa nak balik mesia, transfer lagi baik la
still quiet, simply looked at me with that " empty " look

izham: nak balik jugak
me; ko wat per balik, score jer
izham: ala, baru dua sem, dah la makin menurun
me: turun2 pun lepas 3.5 lagik
senyap lagik

me: ntah, last sem ader problem tak dpt dikesan kot
izham: at least skang ko dah happy, ader roommate best
me: hope so, ntah, tak tahu!

he changed the topic of discussion, then we left for ME class.

would it be better for me if i change from here to there?

would it be better if i can become like him/her?

or is it just me, who living up these thoughts
when i am actually scared
to stare into the mirror and

to get to know who i really am?

is it just me?
or is it true GPA any lower than 3.5
is umemployable?
ker?

pls do try to answer the above, i am afraid to know both
me and my future

just leave me where you know me
and the rest will be forgiven !

still dying of boredom
writing papers
reading codes and coding
loops

read about people's blues
kept thinking
"where am i going?"

used to be
i imagine if i can't make it
to the varsities
i wanna go to MFI
malaysia france institute
and study for HND
higher national degree
in engineering
and take the long way to jobplace


--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

It is not he critic who counts;
not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled
or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man
who is actually in the arena,
whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood;
who strives valiantly;
who errs and comes short again and again;
who knows great enthusiasms,
the great devotions;
who spends himself in a worthy cause;
who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement,
and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while
DARING GREATLY
so that his place shall never be
with those timid souls
who know neither victory or defeat.


Theodore Roosevelt
26th President Of The United States
Books Quotes

tadik dah tulih jenel
tapi server blogger ni buat lawak
so tuko la browser mene(T)ry skali lagik

what i am thinking:

why school days seem so long
and weekend seems so short?
why i have no motivation writing my paper?
why am i single? ( certain ppl, do not try to answer this)

what i am thinking to tell people:

sera: i found it!

shazlan : jahat!!!!!, dtg la sini masa spring break,
so that i can give you a kick on the butt!

azlina: sweater you dah 2 hari i pakai, comfy ahh
jom, gi shopping when you get here!!

aza: get well soon

zaza: nak nasik lemak!!!!

kak farah; sorry tak join gi swimming

farah: uikss, mimpi aper kasik email? ( lawak tak berkenaan )

org2 jiwang: apsal korang sumer jiwang?

me: have a peaceful and safe week ahead, smile, laugh out loud, score in c++, finish you wost paper and finish report for beam bending experiment...
else: relax!!... and enjoy ( as quoted from "good guy")

input

masalah mat jan != masalah budak2 sini
masalah mat jan = masalah ed awal tahun lepas
tapi
cara org dlm masalah ed != cara org dlm masalah mat jan

compile

printed on scren

mat jan != ed

( review programming sblm mid term selasa depan )

end up that i did not do both
shopping or finishing my paper
end up i watching minnesota oechestra
with jenni , and her friends
( which include 2 guys from germany )

i am all about germany nowadays

i had a "bad" dream last nite
it was long
and as soon as it ends
i woke up

and the phone rang
it was sera

but the dream was about
one of my closest friend
"the beautiful soul"
that is what her name means

i immediately call her up
making sure she is allright
left a msg in her handphone voicemail
i think she has not awaken yet

i am worried


( well actually, in real life, i do not think she would do such things)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

another story

yesterday was the fourth time
someone who speaks arabic as their native
again, translated my name for me
in their dialect usage

ayah, you should have been very more careful when you chose my name
hehehhehhehehehehehhehehehehhehehehhehehehhehehehehehehhehhe

i was calling a travel agency to get my tickets
when the person who was taking my info down
is from middle east

" did you know your name means scarce?"
"hard to find, rarely found?"

and i said
"yeah i had heard that 3 times now"

the first person who told me that
was at the festival of nation
then a taxi driver ( here when you order a taxi, you have to give your name down,
so that when they come to pick you up, they don't pick people who did
not call them )
then from lamia,

now from this guy

man, i knew it means beauty
in Quran , at least

but not rare
because that will depend on me
whether the rarity is

invaluable in a way or the other

and more that 40 people had call em by that name
kan doa tuh?

iskkk
iskk iskk
iskkk

Wonderful - by EverClear
utk Sera

"Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful... Isn't it wonderful now?"

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little and the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no

I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no

I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same, just like it used to be

Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

dah?

finally
the page looks more appealing
thus
during spreing break, i'll be working on the
"home" for this page

and i am going to need help
a lot of help
esp from sera, kak aquil and anas
if possible

has anas went back to malaysia?
or is he still in korea?
artbiy, if you are reading this
respond to this pls
( you deleted my entry on your guestbook the other day :) )

i did not realize this
but my spring break is way later than aother people
2 weeks after lina's spring break
ain't that late?

got one more offer for tickets
865 from tripmakers
gonna call them today
and book if that is available...

tell me, should i go shopping today or
try to finish my paper?

can't figure out why table on the left side is "supppressed"

trouble shooters, anyone?

oh well
baby tak sihat hari nie
her mom brought her to see the doctor
then she called me asking for next thu and fri
to look after her baby
supposedly, maryam is a sanguine baby
hehehehhe

that simplify things a lot

stuck here (again, sigh)
finishing the string coding
don't worry
i am fine today
my hormones war is not as bad as before
budak nakal has taken half of it last nite

by the way, si nakal,
how's your exam
and why haven't reply my mail yet?
ha? why? ha?
your reply made me feel guilty, but, who cares!!, hihihihi, you got your princess, aper lagik, pi report la..hehhehe

miss comel
sorry i can't take your call
i am still in the lab
i sent you an email explaining everything
thanks for the sweater and the valentine's card

both are wonderful
the sweater looks cute with the flower
thingie
he he he he
but short la ( sampai waist exact
so i kene carik long short sleeve to match up
that sweater, kan?

still have not found the culprit behind
the e valentine's card
i wonder if miss comel actually terforgot that she send me 2 cards, a real one and and e card

miss comel
respon to this

haa..
tak tgk lagik muka baru page nie
few people kata comel blue dia, hehehe, LONG LIVE BLUE

funny
menstrual a taboo thingie
yeah yeah yeah
whatevea

return travel agency call last nite
mom
i got ticket now, but stil waiting

it does not sounds really good
but my flight will be on the 9 and arrving on the 10th
of august in malaysia, 10.25 pm
that is if i got on board this time
i am still browsing though

it is cheap tooo
under 1000 , just as i estimated la...

but i will stil browse around

lunch with Julie
interesting
( Julie - Ryan )

go class at 2.30 ( 12 minutes from here )
haaaaa..
the egyptian lady
really wantes me to babysit her daughter
maryam tomorrow!

i have not seen babies in while
i have no clues what to expect

ikutkan plan
i want to go shopping right after class esok
but then this lady emailed me
kesian pulak
dia nak keje
takder org nak jaga baby dia
tolong pun takper kot
skali skala tolong org
friday buleh pi shopping
ala..tapi, essay wost tuh due tuesday
tuesday pulak ader exam c++ lab

man, serba salah
nak enjoy utk diri sendiri
ker nak tolong org?

2 funny things happen today

incident 1.

got back my DE result
at first
i was surprised
and almost felt
"of all things i've done? "
then realized that my TA
had count my result wrong
went to see him
and add 12 more points

incident2.


i got my period
and it was painful
went to boynton
and found really cheap painkiller
1.50 for 50 pills

then wanted to get hold
of a gynea ( maybe kak max can help me)
asking for birth pill control
the way the clerk look at me
{ gosh, she but be sexually active! }
hell no,
i need it to relieve my pain
parmenantly
i hope

that's all for now
need to catch c++ lab

bad me
can't keep my mind shut
always exists something i wanna think about

right now the issue is
loneliness
and (?)

function (?)
cout<<"enter issues"<cin>>?>>endl;

use your highly intelligent skill
to interpret the above
thank you

la la la la la la

this is a self terminating( destruct ) information
will be available only for 3 days
then self terminating sequence will be completed

it's OVER.

just got back from dinner
in one small
tiny restaurant

and mom
guess what?

along dah jumpa sizzling mee kat sini
tapi takder ayam aa
ader sayur2 jer
and tak beberapa pedaas sgt
but really reminds me of sizzzling me
yg pakai yee me tuh
yum yum

the dish name is lo han jai
erkk..kot!
-----------------------------------------------------
and i saw
2 girls eating with their mom
erkk....syahdu sat
miss the times when
all of us
me
mom
daddy
GG
aizat
azwan
and sakinah
walked around pasar malam
few nights before i left malaysia

mom rarely go out
she hate going out
( ker you like it but can't find time for it? )
she usually
"halau" all the kids to playground at 6
and prefer to be left alone till like 7
and daddy usually work outside the house too
during that time

with his motorcycle
( remember the old one? )
or the van
or trimming the trees
cabut rumput
layan pokok2 dlm pasu2 tuh

man, wanna go home la
feel *funny*

"budak nakal, if you are reading this, make sure you are smiling...
tak best la tgk anda bersedih2an,.....tak suka aaa, jgn la wat camnie"

many people had misunderstood
my writing on the presentation

one person interpreted it as
"ed la yg tak reti terima compliment"
"ed, american tuh puji superficial,
tipu jer sumer tuh, nak jaga hati"
" ed american nie, teruk ekk? minum arak, bla..bla"

oh well,
you all need a higher
and better atitude to interpret
my thinking next time

sepatah kata udika
the one who wears hijab does not mean
she is a good person
or the one who wears
short skirts
is a bad person

they were vener given any chance to Islam
and us keep kutukin' them
saper lagik tak baik?

why not, rather then
saying bad things to them
approach them and
see them as human?

peace!

( lagik suka kang out ngan mereka yg korang kater teruk tuh dari hang out ngan korang yg perasan baik)

jam dah menunjukkan pukul 7.15 mlm
ed masih berada dlm 4-250 EE SCI
di hadapan mesin unix ini
di sediakan oleh University oF minnesota
dibeli dari Solaris
with preinstallation of Java

bersama- sama lab partner yg tak mahu putus asa
menyelesaikan soalan terakhir
raphson equation
setelah bertungkus lumus
semalam menyiapkan diamond,
propability telepon,
dan juga 3 soalan2 lain di dalam kelas

kepenatan masih terasa
perut masih kosong
camna la nak kasik perut nie
kalau kosong
tak rasa pelik
rasa normal jer
sbb badan ni asyik nak makan jer
24/7
ishhh
makan tido
tuh jer dia suka
hampeh tul badan ku yg best ini

soalan raphson ini tidak la susah
cuma tricky
kene buat 2 while loop berjalan dlm satu masa
atau
kene tgk cara2 anda mengassign
x1 kepada x1
sblm loop ituh berakhir

kerana kebencian saya
kepada for loop
telah lama ku tinggalakan loop yg jahat itu
nasib baik ader 2 lagi loop lain
do while and while

benci for loop
berbelit2
kalau jln nak pegi genting highland

lupa nak puji sket
stablenyer mesin unix ni ekkk
dah dekat 5 jam ed ader kat sini
( smlm lagik la , 7 jam you )
takde rpulak dia hang ker
cam window tuh
guna la power point lebih dari 2 jam
kejap lagi kejang la pc tuh

time kasih unix
kerana suh ed duk sini sampai assigment ni siap
benci la
esok dah ari sabtu
org plan nak enjoy2 nie

homework plak sibuk
friday nite nie
kiterang jer la duk dlm lab
org lain sumer pi party
bagus gaks
tader ler jam lab nie

udah ler mesin nei best
screen dia pulak 21 inchies
( salaj eja rasa nie )
fuiyoo
tuh la
kang mata nie penat la sat gi
tido lagik 12 jam

komputer2
tak heran la programmer jadik kaya
susah rupanya ekk?
takper
nanti ed jadik engineer
yg lagik kaya dari programmer

korang caya tak
pro E tuh
harga dia satu software
14 ribu USD?
dlm university nie
ader satu lab jer yg ade Pro E
penuh plak tuh
ed tak tgk lagik
isk...
homework, homework
aper la kamu nie...

tuh jer la
lapo perut nie
aper la perut
apsal la asyik lapo jer?
isk isk isk

ponteng klas DE
tido selama 12 jam
crazy me
since thursday camnie

tido jer everytime i got back to my room
tired maybe
dunno

yesterday spend 7 hours in front of Unix
solving the c++ thingie
hate it
6 problems this week
last week just 5
week before just 4

i wonder what's next

got to do Pro E
got to write application to german essay
got to read C ++
got to catch up math homework
got to go to sno ball
got to get dress to go to that sno ball
( gonna practice Jess's swing dancing trick! )

yeah yeah yeah
later!

nadhra

hahaha
finally the most hectic day is over
and i feel fine about it

i am going to tell you about
my presentations that i just had
in my ME class
and the feedback that my classmate
gave to me after the presentation

most people nowadays
if asked
when is your most proudest moment
would take like 3 minutes before they are able to answer that
and when last week
leaderquest groups
was asked to disscusseds about this topic
most people could not came out
with anything at all

as tony blue eyes put it
"we are living in a humble society that we forget
what we are good for"

true
and so true

i was so excited to
read the feedback my classmates
gave me just now
because i have not been speaking
in front of public for a while
first of all
i am not in malaysia
or else i will still be the "performer"
a debater
hosstess
and a public speaker

and so
my hear was beating hard
that i think the person sitting next to me
can actually hear it

my presentation was about
how CD are produced
and how they work
in a CD player
i think it is the simplest of all

other people was talking
about things in technical term
which i find i had to read
later on
in order to catch up with them

the feedback was formatted to be like this

presenter name:
organizations:
visual:
delivery:
overall:
and comments:

and i have now
next to me
23 index cards
of the above formats
with the range of scores
lowest 7
highest 10
( the scale was between 1-10 )

amazingly as
my personality
the feedback matches up
of who i am
as i thought i am

"talked fast"
almost everybody
gave 10 for my organizations
which i really am very, very
organized person

and one person
wrote
"wow, perfect!"

and i am amazed

i prepared the presentations
like 1 hour minutes before class
because i had my math midterm going
( and sera, yes , we are on a bet now! )

and arrived at class 10 minutes late
well
that does not matter now, does it?

what matter is
once you got front there
talking
to strangers
( people you hardly knew their name! )
it's hard

they have different values than you have
they are fairer ( color ) that you are
and you are the only one wearing hijab
in that class
you do not have any expectations
from them

isn't it weird
that these people
who have different sets of standards
value you more than your own people?

i was saying these
because i remember
when i was in malaysia
giving speech
and talks

i have not yet
encounter any
ANY good and positive feedback
from my audience

malah
in one incident
my audience evem levae the room i was speaking in
because he can't stand "me"

difficuilt
but true
maybe we are all like that
critical to people we know most
"to show that we 'care'"
"hard love"
as my women studies instructor was saying

this makes me more
of feeling that
i don't want to come home
after i am settled down

my own people
do not appreciate me
weird?
or i never listen to them?

but sasha has a point
" i do not wnat my children to grow up here
and learn to say motherfucker"
shessshhhshs
sensored!!!

kyoung rae
said it again last nite
" you know a lot more than other people at your age,
but this world is not fit for people like you".

true
isn't it?

aaaa..
tired still
have not figured put who send the valentine card
talk to lina
she has no clue

got transparencies to draw
books to read
respon for class
at 6

i guess i will be fine

the week began in a stressful way
i am tired
and i got 2 things happening
that really upset me
one:
my superviosr at work send me an email
telling me that i did not do my job very well
last friday
and yesterday
i miss filing out some forms
and forget shelving things on the rack

i feel bad
really bad
because i did not do
my responsiblity very well

but i was sooo tired
and noboy wanted to replace me
not like last semester when somebody
wanted ro rest on sundays
i would not mind replacing her shift

and this semester
no one
answered to my eamil when i need help badly last week

i am behind my homeworks
and i feel bad

two:
somebody uses azlina's
email to send me a valentine card
&*^&*%@#&%@&#%@#%&@(@^#*
i hate people like that
do not

REPEAT
DO NOT USES OTHER PEOPLE NAME

TO EXPRESS YOUR FEELING
COME OUT AND SPEAK UP

YOU CHICKEN!!!!
!^@%!&*#%!&* CHICKEN!!!

aaaa......
i hate this feeling
:( :( :( :( :(

an email to my mom and my dad back at Malaysia:


assalamulaikum wbh

along nak mintak maap sbb tak call dulu sblm gi retreat arituh.
arituh, mmg rush la nak keluar, satu jam sblm pegi baru packing barang, byk giler benda tinggal, ubat gigi la, selipar la, t shirt la, stokin wool la...

dan resultnyer, along sgt2 la enjoy retreat tuh sbb budak2 kat situ sumer baik2, hahaha, tak macam budak2 melayu, hahahahah
along tak suka budak melayu, hahahha, jahat2....

apsal ntah sejak akhir2 nie, rasa budak2 melayu tak best, bukan tak best cam teruk sgt ker aper, tapi rasa cam kene pretend biler lepak ngan derang...camner nak explain aa? tak reti aaa...tapi along tak suka..tuh for sure, rasa cam kene jadik org lain...sbb derang akan cakap belakang2 kalau kiter buat benda2 yg dia rasa tak betul, sah2 la cam makcik2 yg suka duk bergossip, ekekek, budak laki pun sama jer....

arituh, masa senior KISAS along call, mintak tolong aper ntah, along sergah2 dia sket, ekekeke, kalau tak sergah, nanti dia tepon lagik, mintak tolong lagik, dah ler takder credit..ekekeke sekali sekala gila kuasa pulak...

along pun tak tahu, pastuh tetiba rasa homesick plak. sbb masa balik ader mamat nie hantar, and dia terus nak balik umah dia yg ader mak and ayah and adik dia, iskk..

balik2 bilik, bilik kosong, kyoung rae gi study kot...so rasa excited balik camping nie, terbuku begitu sahaja, rasa nak nangis plak...sbb kalau kat mesia, balik dari camping, bileh balik umah, ader mak and ayah nak dgr cerita along ...kan? kalau tak pun ader adik2, ader GG, aizat, azwan and ina..walaupun derang tuh takde ler beso mana...

alamak, air mata dah nak jatuh nie..sedih sekejap, dah ler tak jumpa2 tiket balik..mak and ayah takder kenal sesaper yg kene MAS ker, ekekek
buleh tolong carik tiket murah..anak mak and ayah nei dah jadik kedekut skit...mak la ajar nie..:)

tuh la, keluhan anak mak and ayah yg jauh nie..ishhh..susah nak describe feeling bila ader sorang lagik mamat yg naik kete tuh cakap
" lepas balik bilik, ader org amik bawak balik umah, wonder aper ader kat umah ( food)" sbb masa tuh kat tangan ader sandwich subway tuna,

tgh lapo sgt2 tuh...sedih pulak, kalau kat mesia, cam masa balik dari camping kat melaka tuh, kurang2 ader sayur masak air mak tuh ngan ikan goreng..plus sambal belacan..simple tapi, yum yum yum.....

kelako2..takper la...jgn la risau, along dah okay kot, bulehnyer handle nie..dah ler kene keje sejurus selepas balik dari camp..takder org nak amik shift along

kurang2 takder ler terpikir pasal nak balik mesia jer, kan?
balik nie nak basuh baju, kemas barang balik, and tido
esok baru baca buku
ari rabu ader exam ngan presentation
tak mula aper2 lagik
nasib esok ader org ganti keje...

okay

along yg rasa nak balik umah
and tetiba rasa nak mak and ayah ader kat sini
nadhra